Making space

I find myself settled on a bluff by the ocean,
Learning the meaning of hold, give, and take.
I listen in wonder with pen upon paper to the
Whispers my soul speaks as each word finds it’s place.

I hold space for my spirit through breath and by listening,
​My mind purposely languid and wandering and free.
By engaging each instant, attentive and wondering,
I feel atmosphere opening, yawning before me.
In the moment I’m grateful for this lesson in holding.
That the harrowing grip which I’ve clutched for so long
Has a counterpart that’s more like summer and wheat fields,
Like cradling a child to sleep in my arms.
I learn holding with love beats controlling. And really,
The truth is the harder we squeeze then we fail
At the one thing we know to be true here - our oneness -
Which I breathe into being each precious inhale.

I give space to my children, freewheeling and lovely,
Floating in water profound, deep, and blue.
I watch through blurred eyes and find only perfection,
Reflections of love - understanding that through
My own silence, my stillness, my trust in their being,
I give space to their brotherhood, peace, and pure hearts.
I learn not to hover, nor expect the next conflict,
That in foretelling a fallout I force them apart.
I learn freeing them frees me. We are safe and unfailing.
I learn that this giving feels like letting go.
This new resonant truth in the core of my being
Pulses warm in my veins urging, “Grow mama, grow.”

I take space with my body, expansive and gilded,
Without an apology, pardon, or pause.
I think not of the should-be’s, the ideals of others,
Or the voices of ego and mind that have caused
My past heartache, past hatred, and self-separation
From the soul that I know as my singular truth.
Instead I stand rooted to this present moment, the well
Which bears knowing, self-love, and sound proof
Of perfection in being just here as I am
In this minute. And this one. And now. Here again.  
I’ve arrived in my body, my temple, my home.
I’m awake now, surrendered to paths yet unknown.
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Catalina Island, CA
©​Anjale Perrault 2017